So Desperate to Belongs (9/?)

[giichamainimore]

Title : So Desperate to Belongs (9/?)
Author : Giichamainimore
Pairing : Minho/Onew-Jinki, Jonghyun/Jinki
Rate : Rated for Language
Genre : Romance, Friendship, Brotherly Love

He's Here, Kim Jonghyun

 

Jonghyun rushed his steps like he did a marathon in school corridor to find his des…er, Jinki-hyung who he hadn’t seen for eight years. His sly smile cover over his plum lips like a moron that he was. His arms kinda itchy impatiently wanting to hug and squeezed Jinki as much as he wanted in his arms now.

He couldn’t help himself for imagining how Jinki looked now, still he had those rabbit teeth, his eye smile, his bright smile and those chubby cheeks. All Jonghyun could do just imagined his cute hyung while running nonstop until his steps had stopped as he caught something on his sight then he ran toward it.

Jonghyun’s POV

Oh, hell yeah! God! Just by minutes I will meet with Jinki-hyung!! God, How I miss him as hell! Now, after eight years I will meet him again!! I want to hug and squeeze him as I do to my pillows maybe I’ll keep him in my arms like there no tomorrow. Ah! That’s good idea, Jjong! But… still he remembers me? God, Jjong, of course he remembers you until the end! You’re his Jjong! Yeah, I’m yours, hyung!

After running around the corridor, my attention has caught by someone shouts and I vaguely hear someone cries not far from my spot now, immediately I run toward it don’t waste my times anymore.

Just taking a few steps I can see who is shouting just now, I stop my legs. Rolling my eyes as I know who is it, of course the only one that The Dark Prince Choi Froggyhead Minho, hell that creaky little brat what is he doing now! Bullying the first year again? Heck! Does it his fetish or something?! Why does he always bully the innocent ones?! He’s a devil! ‘Minho’ is not suit him at all he must be called ’MEANHO’ for sure! Choi Meanho, isn’t it sound good? Oh, I’ve new nick name for you, ‘Meanho’.

God sorry for saying these but if I have blades on my hands, I’d love to throw it to his annoying head now until he runs of blood! I’d laugh like there no tomorrow saw he lay on the floor and covered by blood! I’d die without regret!

I run a little toward them again, I want to see who Meanho’s victim is now. I’m narrowing my eyes to Meanho’s victim, well, what I can see just from his back he is shaking or trembling as he sobbing. Oh, poor that innocent one has to face with the hell-sent devil Meanho! But for my surprise, I have never been seeing Meanho this angry and full of hates cover his froggy face, yelling and saying harsh words this much, he always just give a sharp glare toward his victim but why he’s being fussy now? Shaking my head, hell, Jjong! Why do you care about that froggy?!

This is makes me curious, so step forward as I hear a faint sobbing that comes from the victim, I think.

“…Why did you become like this, Minho-yah?”

I stopped my pace as that faint soft voice dance over into my ears. I shake my head immediately maybe I misheard it, frowning.

“…You’re not the person I used to know before,” here we go again, I hear that faint voice again, his voice kinda cracking and shaking now. Wait a second! Do I hear it wrong or my ears are deaf? I think I had heard this voice before, I knew it but I’m not sure who. Oh! Jjong, thinks! Jjong, thinks!! Where did you have heard that voice, you airhead!

“You’re not the same as before…”

Widening my eyes super large then I snapped my head toward them surprised. Just don’t tell me! Just don’t tell me that voice belongs to…

“Because I’m not your ‘Minho-yah’!!”

As Minho yelling at that person I immediately run toward them. I don’t care if I was guessing that person wrong as my Jinki-hyung, I just want to help that poor one from that brat! But hell yeah, God knows how to make a surprise with His kids. I can hear tiny bells are ringing and vision of people around me are throwing confetti to me as I see that victim clearly in my sight, of course I remember, his honey brown hair, his gesture and his sobbing that since along I haven’t heard and seen it, that’s my Jinki-hyung… but why? Why is he crying now? Take a glance over that froggy, of course he is the suspect! Screw you Choi Minho!! How dare you make my Jinki-hyung crying?! I’ll give you a punch and send you to the hell for making him crying!!

Gritting my teeth as I’m digging my nails into my palms, I lost my temper now this time, Choi Minho. Without wasting my time anymore, I’m holding my hands out to search for my Jinki-hyung, I want to hold him now, stopping him from his cries.

I’m sighing in relief as that supposed to be Jinki-hyung in my arms. I’m holding him tightly then I’m breathing his scent from his back. It feels like a joy! Just breathing in his soft scent, I know who belongs to this soft scent. This is my Jinki-hyung, my Jinki-hyung.

That hurts me so much, he’s shaking in my arms and sobbing faintly, I don’t want to see him like this, all I want to see is him smiling. He lifts his head up toward me with wide eyes, he must be surprised seeing me but I find it’s so cute seeing him like that. Then he pulls out from my arms, looking at me as If he was seeing a ghost. OMG! I have to hold my desire to pinch his cheeks right now, he looks so damn cute now!

Smiling toward him, “Hello, Jinki-hyung. Long time no see,” I say as I leaning in toward his cheek and give a soft peck on it then I run my lips to his ear, whispering, “I miss you, Jinki-hyung,” with low tone. I grin when I see he’s blushing to his ear.

He moves back still looking at me with wide eyes while gaps his mouth cutely. OMG! If I were a kidnapper I would immediately kidnap him and take him far from society, why he’s being this damn cute even more cute than he was young!!

“Still remember me, hyung?” I ask him as he covers his mouth with his palms then point me with his finger, titling my head.

He looks right on my gaze, gasping, “J-Jjong…!! Jonghyunnie!!” he cries my name, it feels like I won the lottery after he cried my name like that, he still remembers me!

Immediately I pull him to my arms again, rubbing my cheek through his soft hair lovingly, tightening my arms around him, “I’m home, hyung,” I say. I rub his back slowly trying to calm him down as he whimpers again, “I’m here, hyung,” I whisper to him, I sigh in relief when he stop whimpering and hugs me back, he nuzzles into my shoulder.

When I want to run my hand to Jinki’s hair someone gives a death glare toward us, I can feel that. I snap my head toward that person, of course it’s Minho, that little brat who makes my Jinki-hyung crying! He shots his big eyes toward us dangerously, slightly looks mad maybe shock or pain, well I can’t tell. I smirk as I see how shock Minho and looks a little jealous when I kiss Jinki-hyung’s ear. Then I kiss Jinki-hyung’s ear again but not leave my gaze from Minho, I smirk again as I see him looks slightly anger before looks away. Gotcha Minho!!

“Hey, if you want to doing something lovey-dovey just don’t do it here, in public place, we’re in school now, Dino!” someone say, “Go find other quite place!”

I lift my head to look at that person who has just said it. I roll my eyes when I see that feline eyes guy looks at me annoyingly as he crosses his arms on his chest. “That’s none of your business,” I answer him calmly, look across at him after he give a death glare, “Why?”

Hissing, “You’re polluting me baby’s eyes!!”

Rolling my eyes again before sliding my arm around Jinki-hyung’s waist, “Hyung, let’s go find some peace place,” I say then pull him slowly. I take a glance to Minho who still looks through the window before I accidently bump his shoulder with mine, “Ops! Sorry…” I say as I hold the laughers that will come from my mouth when I saw how funny his face just now.

End of Jonghyun’s POV

ㅍ_ㅍ ♥ ^▽^ 

Jonghyun carefully led Jinki sat on the seat in the music room then he pulled another seat next to Jinki and sat there. He watched Jinki lovingly as he held Jinki’s hand tightly, his smile never left from his lips. He stroked his thumb on Jinki’s hand trying to get Jinki’s attention who just stared blankly at the floor since they had entered his room. “Jinki-hyung?” he called but there’s no any answer came from Jinki’s mouth, he still busy staring at the floor. Jonghyun sighed then shifting his seat so he sat on front of Jinki. “Jinki-hyung?” he called again as he caressed Jinki’s cheeks slowly, but again Jinki didn’t answer him right away. Jonghyun frowned, starting to worry about his hyung, that was distracted him. He leaned in a little, “Hyung?” he called with soft tone now, blinking his eyes a few times as he felt his hand touched something liquid and hot. He jerked his eyes to Jinki’s eyes, started to panicking when he saw Jinki was crying again. Cupping Jinki’s cheeks carefully, “Hy-hyung? What’s wrong? Did you hurt somewhere?” He asked while wiping the tears away.

Jinki shook his head slowly before he looked at Jonghyun a while, “No, I didn’t…” looked away, “It’s just…Minho, he…” he said weakly.

Shifting closer toward Jinki, “He what, hyung? Did he hurt you? I saw he yelled at you just now,” frowning, “Come to think of it, hyung,” gulping, “What were you talking about, hyung? Until he this mad and bitching you like that. Have you done wrong to him?” Jonghyun groaned, stared to frustrating imagined if it was true, “But…how could you know him? Since you have just entered this school,” biting his lips nervous, well he didn’t know why but he felt so damn nervous now, like he wanted to kick Minho’s face now.

Jinki looked down at the floor again, sighing, “Jonghyunnie…” Jonghyun just hummed him, “Remember, when I’d told you that I had friend named Minho?” he heard Jonghyun gasped on this spot, “This Minho is Choi Minho who you were talking about,” he told, gripping Jonghyun’s hand that still cupped his cheeks, started to crying again, “Hyunnie…” shook his head, “H-he… has cha-changed, he’s… not the Minho I-I used to knew before, he’s not Minho,” sniffing, “He’s even doesn’t re-remember me, he doesn’t remember me, Hyunnie…” Jinki whimpered, “I-I don’t kn-know what to do, Hyunnie… It hurts,” Jinki whined as he cried even harder.

Biting his lips before knelt on front of Jinki as he pulled Jinki onto his arms protectively, hushing Jinki, “Don’t cry, hyung, please don’t cry, it hurts me when see you like this,” Jonghyun said while his hand patting Jinki’s back. He felt so damn mad now, his blood was boiling up to his head. He really wanted to kick Minho and sent him to the hell for making his hyung cried like this but he held it, he didn’t want to make his hyung hurt even more and cried like this. Pulled out his arms around Jinki then wiping the tears away from Jinki’s eyes, “Hyung? Smile, okay?” Jinki hummed him and gave a nod. Sat back on this seat, sighing, “How come I don’t know your Minho is the same as this creaky little brat,” looked up to the ceiling, “He was a good boy before….”

Jinki who busy dried his wet face snapped his head toward Jonghyun, “Wh-what do you mean?” he asked.

Looked at Jinki, “I heard from his old friends, he was a good, cheerful and friendly boy before. He smiled warmly to everyone, greeted him politely. He was so kind before, but…” he paused, “I don’t know what happened to him but since he entered the junior high, he had changed became a brat as now. He bullied everyone who he thinks they bother him, the point is he’s not a good person now,” Jonghyun said, “But, I’d a little memory with him. Remember when you had hospitalized before you moved to L.A?” Jinki nodded, he continued it, “It was the day when I came to visit you, when I was on the way to go home someone bumped me so I fell on my butt, my butt really sore that time and I realized the lollipop you had given me cracked that was really pissed me off so I snapped him but he bowed me a few time said sorry,” chuckled, “Because I was a good boy, I forgave him after he bowed me so deeply,” looked through the window, “I can’t imagine that good boy had changed became a brat now…”

Jinki just silent, adjusting the whole words that Jonghyun had told him just now.

Jonghyun turned his head toward Jinki again, he frowning as he saw his hyung was distracted again. He walked closer to him, kneeling then hugged him tightly, resting his head on Jinki’s shoulder, “Hyung, let’s stop walking about him, I don’t want you sad and hurt again,” held him tightly.

“Hyunnie…” he stopped as Jonghyun hushed him.

“Hyung, lemme hug you first,” chuckled, “You know how much I love skinship, right?” Jinki nodded, “Good, I want to breathe in my hyung’s scents that since eight years ago I’d never seen, okay?” Jonghyun nuzzled his nose to Jinki’s neck, “I miss you, hyung,” he whispered through Jinki’s neck, “Welcome home, hyung,” he shut his eyes.

Jinki, to be honest, he wanted that words came from Minho’s mouth, he really wanted Minho said that words to Minho and hugged him tightly just like Jonghyun did now.

Nodding slowly, “I’m home, Jonghyun,” he said.

Jonghyun lifted his head up and gave a soft kiss on Jinki’s cheek, actually that was his habits to kiss and hug Jinki like this, Jonghyun really love to skinship especially with his Jinki-hyung.

ㅍ_ㅍ ♥ ^▽^ 

Jinki tapped the piano’s tones with his one finger, trying to erase the boredom around him since Jonghyun had left him to buy a meal for them. They skipped the class together. Jinki just followed Jonghyun’s words when he told to skip the class since he was not in the mood to studied and sat in the class.

Jinki sighed heavily. It has been twenty minutes since Jonghyun had left him. What made him take this long?

Jinki turned his heas as he heard the door being opened, he smiled, finally Jonghyun came after the dull times, “Jonghyunnie, what make you take so long?” Jinki asked but there’s no answer came from Jonghyun, frowning, “Hyunnie?” again there’s no answer, “Jonghyunnie, is that you?” he asked again and decided to get up from his seat and walked toward the the door since Jonghyun didn’t come to approach him. “Jonghyunnie, what-” he was cut off as he saw the one who entered the room wasn’t Jonghyun but Minho. Gasping, “M-Minho-yah…” he said barely whisper.

When Minho saw Jinki he immediately turned back but before he could ran away Jinki pulled him by his wrist tightly.

“Minho-yah, what a minute!” Jinki told him as he stopped Minho right away, he didn’t want to let his opportunity gone anymore.

Minho looked down at him annoyed before he looked away, “What do you want now?” he asked coldly.

Jinki released his grip around Minho’s wrist slowly as he step back a little, biting his lower lips, “I-I want to talk to you, Minho-yah…” he looked up at Minho waiting for the respond from Minho but sadly there’s no respond from Minho. He sighed and continued, “Uh…um, Minho-yah… Are you sure you don’t remember me at all?” he asked slightly hurt. “Are you sure?”

Minho hissed in annoyed, “How many time you want me to say I don’t f-ing know or remember you!! Aren’t you tired asking me this question every time?! You know, I’m tired hearing you always ask me the same thing like this, it’s bothering me!” sighing, “Why are you so annoying?” putted one of his hands on hip.

Grabbed Minho’s sleeve, “Minho-yah, sure you don’t remember me?” soften his gaze, “Just please, Minho-yah, tell me that you remember me,” shook his head slowly, “Why do you keep deny it? I have feeling that you still remember me, but…” looked up, “why do you pretend like you never met me. I know you remember me, but why, Minho-yah? Why you became like this? Why you changed?” a single tear shed from his eyes.

Minho gritted his teeth and clutched his fists annoyed, that was really annoying him, shoved Jinki’s hand from his sleeve roughly, “What if I say that I still remember you!! Yes, I still remember you until now, you heard that, I still f-ing remember you!!” he said as he yelled his lung out with full of anger. “What do you want now, Jinki-hyung?”

Jinki beyond than shock now, he couldn’t tell himself should he felt happy or sad hearing Minho was still remember me until now. Yes he should felt happy about it yet why it still felt hurt?

His tears fell even more, “But, but why you keep say you don’t remember me? What have I done to you, Minho-yah? Why are you so cold toward him?” shook his head, “Why did you change like this? Have I done wrong to you, Minho-yah?” he asked while crying.

Jabbed his one finger on Jinki’s chest, “You don’t know what you have done to me, Hyung? You don’t know the reason why I’d changed, hyung?”

Jinki just shook his head slowly as he tried to hold the tears that threatened escape from his eyes.

Laugh bitterly before he continued it, “It’s because of you, hyung!! It’s you, hyung!!” jabbed Jinki’s chest again more roughly so Jinki had to step back, “You caused this all! Don’t you remember the promise we had made before you left me behind? You remember it, hyung?! I bet you didn’t! We promised that we would keep contact each other, telling me everything when you were there but why, hyung? Why? For eight years you didn’t even contact me, telling me whatever you would tell to me! You know hyung, every single day I was always waiting for you to phone me. I waited every time and kept asking ‘When Jinki-hyung will phone me? When will I hear his voice?’ I was always asking those all to myself, hyung!!” without he realized his tears escaped from the corner on his eyes, “Until I realized, I was so stupid for wait for you and had thought that you had forgotten me already, so this is now, the Minho on front of you is not the Minho you’d known before, Jinki-hyung.” He wiped his tears away.

Jinki just stood there dumbfounded. He forgot, he had forgotten that promise, the promise he had made with Minho before, he forgot about it all. He was the one who made everything turned like this, he was the one who was forgetful was not Minho. He felt so pathetic for blamed Minho that not remembered him, but he was the one who didn’t remember everything. Everything was his fault.

“….ry…” squeezes his eyes shut tightly, letting the tears ran on his cheeks, “I-I’m sorry, Minho-yah, I’m sorry…really, really, sorry for forgetting our promise. I’m sorry for not contact you… I’m sorry, Minho-yah…” he said then he covered his mouth by palms. He felt really, really shameful, all he could do now just kept apologize even though he knew just apologize was not enough.

Pushed Jinki against the wall, ignoring the yelp that escaped from Jinki, “What are you apologizing for now? It way too late you say it now, hyung! It’s too late!! And I don’t need you sorry anymore, it’s enough for me you had hurt me, hyung. It’s enough!!” pressed his palm beside Jinki’s head then leaned in to Jinki’s ear, whispering, “I-” before he could finish his words he had pushed off harshly by someone.

“What are you doing to Jinki-hyung??!” that was Jonghyun who same in the right time before he pushed Minho far from Jinki. “What are you doing, Choi?” he asked dangerously as he shifted Jinki to the back.

Rolled his eyes, “It’s none of your business, Dino,” Minho said calmly. “So, move now!”

Smiriking, “What if I say I don’t want to,” Jonghyun challenged him.

Hissed, “It’s nothing to do with you, Jjong! So move or-” he was cut off.

“Who said this is nothing to do with me?” Jonghyun said as he walked closer to Minho then grabbed Minho’s collar, “Since it’s about Jinki-hyung, his business is my business too, beside…” smirking again that made Minho really annoyed to the hell, “Jinki-hyung is my boyfriend.”

To Be Continued